It's a dark and rainy Monday but Monday blues no longer apply to me.. I'm all mixed up with time now, sometimes I don't even know what day is it! This journey that I decided to disembark on is a real lonely one, sometimes the only person I've spoke to for the day is the room service guy.. But I'm giving it all to this journey of mine, hoping that I find my true inner self (which I have a feeling is not much different from now) one day.. Is just that I want to come out of this a more matured person, a person who's matured enough to finally settle down maybe? Or adopt a kid? Well, who knows? I'm glad to know that no matter how lonely I feel throughout this journey, I'll always have 3 of you to fall back on.. Wish me luck?
Deep down, as much as I want this job, I know it's ruining my relationship.. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm so emotional lately, tears could fill my eyes in seconds when thoughts crossed my mind.. Give me some time, I'll be the happy-go-lucky Amelia that even when Pabu refused to love me, tears has never run down my cheeks! :) ooh, how much I miss the old me.. When relationships are like strangers to me, when sex is nothing that I think about and when myself is my priority in life!
Till then bestfriends,
Mea
06/09/2010 6.37pm
Monday, September 6, 2010
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I know what you're saying! Think all of us used to be really tough. It used to be "fuck those who don't love us, we don't need them to be in our lives". It's just so different now, is it? Now that we all know the true meaning of love?
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